Battle between the mind and soul

I have to admit, I have had difficulty this week particularly with the challenge of reflection.  Those angels have a funny way of bringing things to light at the right time and in the right way...even if it does not feel good!

Earlier in the week, I received a call that I had hoped would have a different outcome.  I had wanted to hear "yes" but received a loudly echoing "no, thank you".  My ego took over and I entered into a funk.  One that allowed my mind to take over and I could hear the voices in my head that we all strive to move away from...I'm not good enough, worthy, etc.  Instead of resisting, I allowed my feelings to surface and temporarily feel sorry for myself.  In some ways, I find this helpful instead of covering up my true feelings as it allows the process of healing to happen sooner than later.

I think that's why I have not blogged regularly this week, using more video's than anything because I have been trying to work through my mind, my ego.  It's funny, I knew a while ago that the answer was going to be "no, thank you" but I resisted and did not want to believe this.  I can see this is all ego based living but the truth is, none of us want to hear "no" when it has to do with our worth, or what we consider our worth.

Yesterday, I heard from the angels "when you allow one door to close, another will open".  Last night when my husband was reading emails he turned to me and said "when you allow one door to close, another will open".  I looked at him in surprise and asked for him to repeat what he had just said.  He was reading an email I had received and that was the title.  I have to say, it is helpful to have the angels around during times like this in order to get over myself much quicker than I used to.

Even though I have to admit that I am still fighting my ego, I have allowed myself to look towards new goals today.  It is rather exciting and feels right...in my soul.  My soul has been telling me all along that it was time to let go of certain ways of thinking or wanting to be but my mind has had a stronger influence.  Messages have been provided to me for some time but I have chosen not to listen to the entire truth, my soul's truth which always has the answers needed to move forward in the direction of my highest good.

I trust in closing this door that a new one will open.  One that is in my highest good and will bring me closer to my soul's purpose.